Round 3

Headed back to Block Center this morning for day 3 of round 3. Still feeling exhausted and neuropathy is a continuing concern. Fine motor control is being affected which is very scary to me as an artist.

The 90 minutes yesterday that I received the most toxic of the meds, Taxotere, I spent with my hands and feet in deep freeze. It is the longest 90 minutes of the day and extremely painful, but if it helps with preventing neuropathy I will do it:/

Huge thanks to those who have brought meals and to my friend Lisa Tofano who will be my companion today. Yesterday my precious friend of 40 years (gulp) Ruthmari Andersen was with me and brought a whole new crop of prayer flags to adorn my space at the Block Center which is becoming a real conversation piece of the staff and patients there... and a great comfort to me.

Today I get the injection of Nuelasta to help boost white blood cell count and make me feel like I have flu x3. I take other meds to help counter that. It all makes me wonder some days who am I and where did Lesley go.

So often at day's end and first in the morning I wonder how I got here and feel the surreal nature of all of this. Each day is an exercise of letting go of yet one more thing trusting that I let go permanently of the "chaff"" and prepare to take up the "wheat" of that which is good in my life and will be returned to me.

I got a tooth chipped yesterday on top of everything else so prayers for that not being a huge deal or expensive repair SO appreciated.