Evening "Chemo Day Zero"
This is what they call today in my chemo session. We were at the hospital this morning at 7:30 for surgery.
Port-catheter installation. That went off well and the nurse anesthetist and my advocate was a dear and really competent and a definitive kindred spirit who just gave the smallest amount of anesthesia needed. I was aware but did not have any pain. She also, unsolicited was VERY encouraging regarding Dr Block and his methods and success of his patients. She said she sees his patients compared to patients from her hospital and Dr Block's patients do far better! All well, step one.
Then on to the Block Center
for pre chemo screening and vitamin infusions.
I was sore and a little groggy. The pre-screening included more discussions regarding meds and their side affects including yet several more reminders that I WILL lose my hair😢which could happen from next week to 3 weeks from now. Still pretty sad about this but resigned to my fate on this one.
Tomorrow begins day one of chemo treatment...6 plus hours. I'm looking for recommendations on good cheerful audiobooks. I have enough depressing stuff happening with real life to add to it in a book.
The potential side effects for all these drugs are a big question mark until the next few days are over. Praying that my body will take what is needed and leave the rest...trusting that all will be well. Many thanks to Amanda Rosengren who met us in between hospital and Block center and laughed with us and prayed with us and for us.
I'm praying that tomorrow I can get the staff to help me visualize something positive about these drugs and how they are assisting me, instead of reiterating all the horrific potential side affects. I need to focus on something positive. I'm weary and weak from weeping about all the loss and sadness. I need to focus on something good about all this. I know that my only hope here is trusting in the One who is my ultimate healer but come on already...can we get a little help from our earthly friends in the medical field?
I am choosing to think on my positive thoughts, those precious grands and the love of family and friends.