This is happening!

This has been a week of contrasts not unlike the weather, hot sunny and humid then cool overcast. I had loads of art therapy and fun with my dearest and most long lasting friend, (I hesitate to use the word oldest in this context 😜) Ruthmari Andersen. We spent 31/2 days together at the International Bead and Button Show in Milwaukee doing art and laughing and crying together as all good friends do.

I was in one of my workshops on Friday when I received not one, but several phone calls from various health care providers regarding Monday's activities re: chemotherapy. I think one of the more unsettling realities of all of this is the medical communities attitudes regarding medication. Remember that I don't even take aspirin, and they are discussing medication to help counter side effects of medication, yikes!

In the end I must just relinquish myself to this process and trust. Not an easy thing for me. Intellectually I understand all the reasons for all of this but it is still difficult for me to lay down control and relinquish my body, my temple, if you will, to the care of others who do indeed know more than I do. I am trying to find balance between self advocating and trusting my medical team. I've told Dr Block that I know this is routine for him but not for me. I'm the one that knows my body best, so I need to find balance between trusting my Spirit within and the cancer specialists without.

We are moving forward in love and trust, I know I don't go alone.